Friday, December 11, 2009,1:55 PM
I finally made the decision
I woke up in the morning today, finally made a decision to erase all the past memories. It took me so long to pick up the courage and make the decision to delete all the past messages sent by someone. I actually left it in my phone for 7 months, but I felt it was all useless now, it serves no purpose to leave it in my phones anymore. It only tempts me to walk into a path where I should not be walking towards, it would only be the memories that keep haunting me if I kept it there. I am no longer going back going back to somewhere that I do not belong. It was really a huge decision for me and yes I ask God for the wisdom and the strength to do so. If I do not delete it from my phone, there is this temptation and hope that I keep looking back and yes it is not healthy for my relationship with God. I do not think God would be please looking at me doing that. It's enough, and time to wake up and serve the Lord my Almighty God.
Its UT(exams) before school holiday starts and I do not like it. I can't put my mind to study for my exams and rather read the bible where God guides me in my life. If not I would be in KL with the rest of the cell group members, shopping, swimming and so on... I lost the purpose in staying in my school as I am not going into the field where I am studying, but something else.
Yesterday, I realised that the skills I had can be used in church to lead others in Christ and cell group. Thank God for empowering me with all this skills, finally found the purpose. However, I still got the urge to leave this school and move on to the next phase of my life. I am praying about it as to where I would go and what I should do.
Today, while being in school, there was this group of people who came to my class and ended up giving me a candy crane. This candy crane was specially for me which kind of surprised me. The message on that crane did not review who the person is, and this kept me guessing. But however I am thankful for the person who gave me that crane, it really made my day. Maybe it's just God's will :) God's will of rewarding me. *smile. Love...
Now basically contemplating whether I should be going for the Sundown Marathon, since so many people are talking about it. I think I should pray about it and listen to what God say before making the decision :)
