Sunday, December 13, 2009,2:45 AM
God Speaks into my heart...
Just as much as I am going through this dark moments of my life, God spoke when I desire to hear from him. It all started in the morning where I spoke to my friend and told her I was not able to listen to God's voice even though I longed to hear his voice. I ask this friend of mine, how can I hear him, and she told me quieten down my heart and learnt to hear from him, however I still didn't know how. She prayed for me to be able to hear the voice of God.
Here comes evening where I had cell group, Dion was the one leading cell. Dion share to us this message about the voice of God, which I was asking about how to hear from him. Dion told us pride was the one that blocks us from be able to listen to him and of course he shared his stories. Pride stops us from being able to listen to the Holy Spirit. (2 Chronicles 32:26, Psalms 10:4) God used Dion to give me the answer as to why I couldn't hear from him. When I hear I choose what I want to hear and what I want to believe, because of pride I chose not to hear from some people where God used them to speak to me. Where ever I thought I was good, I just move towards the direction but yet not seek God and lay down my pride.
Dion then close up by conducting a activity, asking us to pair up with someone that we do not really know, and I happened to pair up with this sister called Evelyn. We did not knew each other, but however we had to hear the voice of God and pray for each other. I did not know how, and just quieten down my heart and just pray and ask God what you want me to speak into her and just hear from him. I sense the word running in faith but I was not certain, I thought I heard God say about what I have been reading recently in the book of Exodus and wants me to tell it to her about the plans that God had for her and ask her to keep being faithful. However, after praying for her I doubt if that was really from God and if that was what she really wanted to hear. After that I asked her, she told me about her situation and to my surprise that was really something I prayed that really spoke to her heart. Same goes for me as she pray for me, she said to me that in my darkness moment which is now, God ask me to seek him in anyway. That really spoke to me and gave me the direction as to what to do and where to go. I really thanked God.
7.30pm church service started, I could not believe that what Rev Melvyn Mak spoke in the service today was something I longed to hear from too. Where he shared about Mary just willing agreed to have Jesus in her tummy without knowing what the future of the child might be, without even thinking about the consequences bearing this child. Sometimes we just got to believe without seeing what the future lies for us. Elizabeth just believe that she will give birth even though she was so old. God actually used her to prepare the way for Mary. As she prepares Mary, her son John prepares the way Jesus is coming. In a way preparing for the miracle. Lastly, he shared about Anna being faithful and believing that the Messiah would come, therefore she was one of the few who get to encounter with God and yet proclaim the Lord. This 3 Women had great fear of the Lord, which therefore experience the greatest miracle in their life for what they had done.