Hello, I am Jina. This is my blog where I share God's love and plans for us. Enjoy. :)
Wednesday, December 16, 2009,10:04 PM
The man I hope to have...
I have been questioning myself today, what I would like as a man for life for me. What would be an ideal man for me in days and years to come. God spoke to me and show me the image and the characteristic I would want my man to be.
- He does not need to be extremely handsome, but a guy looking comfortable in my eyes.
- A family man, someone who loves the family.
- A God-like man, someone who loves God like I do.
- A man who loves me for who I am.
- A man who would spend sufficient time with me, and try to understands me as I understand him.
- A man who is stable in his finances.
- A man who hopefully is active so that he can motivate me in my sports as I motivate him too.
- Someone who do things together.
- Someone taller and bigger size than me.
- A man of his words.
I guess at the moment this is all... After looking at my friend's family, this thought was just prompted in my mind. I think this would make all things great. I pray for this as years to come. As for now, being single would be great :) Be patience as he has plans for you. Do not worry :) I love God, now its a time to fill my soul first :)
Tuesday, December 15, 2009,1:45 AM
Voice of Truth 2
Jeremiah 46:27-28 (NIV)
Do not fear, O Jacob my servant;
do not be dismayed, O Israel.
I will surely save you out of a distant place,
your descendants from the land of the exile.
Jacob will again have peace and security,
and no one will make him afraid.
Do not fear, O Jacob my servant,
for I am with you,"declares the Lord.
"Though I completely destroy all the nations
among which I scattered you,
I will not completely destroy you.
I will discipline you only with justice;
I will not let you go totally unpunished."
(MSG)
" But you, dear Jacob my servant, you have nothing to fear.
Israel, there's no need to worry.
Look up! I'll save you from that far country,
I'll get your children out of the land of exile.
Things are going to be normal again for Jacob,
safe and secure, smooth sailing.
Yes, dear Jacob my servant, you have nothing to fear.
Depend on it, I'm on your side.
I'll finish off all the godless nations
among which I've scattered you,
But I won't finish you off,
I have more work left to do on you.
I'll punish you, but fairly.
No, I'm not finished with you yet."
- Just like what God spoke to Jacob, I sense him speaking to me not to fear and be courageous. He would save me from darkness. That everything would be going back to normal again and the journey would be safe and secure, smooth sailing. He would be with us on this journey. No matter what happens he would not destroy me as he is not done with me yet and there are more left for me to do. There would be a fair punishment by him and I am not finish with what he wants me to accomplish yet.
Monday, December 14, 2009,1:22 AM
Voice of Truth 1
Proverbs 6:16-19(MSG)
Seven Things God Hates
1. Eyes that are arrogant
2. A Tongue that lies
3. Hands that murder the innocent
4. A heart that hatches evil plots
5. Feet that race down a wicked track
6. A mouth that lies under oath
7. A troublemaker in the family
God spoke to me by telling me how much he would not be please if I do any of those mention in the scripture. Lately, I sin by lying to cover up those mistakes I made in the past. As you know one lie leads to another. Of course with my lies and my actions I became the so called troublemaker in the family. I thank him for revealing all theses to me and I repent for what I had done. I ask for forgiveness and pray that he would make things right in his way. Amen.
Sunday, December 13, 2009,2:45 AM
God Speaks into my heart...
Just as much as I am going through this dark moments of my life, God spoke when I desire to hear from him. It all started in the morning where I spoke to my friend and told her I was not able to listen to God's voice even though I longed to hear his voice. I ask this friend of mine, how can I hear him, and she told me quieten down my heart and learnt to hear from him, however I still didn't know how. She prayed for me to be able to hear the voice of God.
Here comes evening where I had cell group, Dion was the one leading cell. Dion share to us this message about the voice of God, which I was asking about how to hear from him. Dion told us pride was the one that blocks us from be able to listen to him and of course he shared his stories. Pride stops us from being able to listen to the Holy Spirit. (2 Chronicles 32:26, Psalms 10:4) God used Dion to give me the answer as to why I couldn't hear from him. When I hear I choose what I want to hear and what I want to believe, because of pride I chose not to hear from some people where God used them to speak to me. Where ever I thought I was good, I just move towards the direction but yet not seek God and lay down my pride.
Dion then close up by conducting a activity, asking us to pair up with someone that we do not really know, and I happened to pair up with this sister called Evelyn. We did not knew each other, but however we had to hear the voice of God and pray for each other. I did not know how, and just quieten down my heart and just pray and ask God what you want me to speak into her and just hear from him. I sense the word running in faith but I was not certain, I thought I heard God say about what I have been reading recently in the book of Exodus and wants me to tell it to her about the plans that God had for her and ask her to keep being faithful. However, after praying for her I doubt if that was really from God and if that was what she really wanted to hear. After that I asked her, she told me about her situation and to my surprise that was really something I prayed that really spoke to her heart. Same goes for me as she pray for me, she said to me that in my darkness moment which is now, God ask me to seek him in anyway. That really spoke to me and gave me the direction as to what to do and where to go. I really thanked God.
7.30pm church service started, I could not believe that what Rev Melvyn Mak spoke in the service today was something I longed to hear from too. Where he shared about Mary just willing agreed to have Jesus in her tummy without knowing what the future of the child might be, without even thinking about the consequences bearing this child. Sometimes we just got to believe without seeing what the future lies for us. Elizabeth just believe that she will give birth even though she was so old. God actually used her to prepare the way for Mary. As she prepares Mary, her son John prepares the way Jesus is coming. In a way preparing for the miracle. Lastly, he shared about Anna being faithful and believing that the Messiah would come, therefore she was one of the few who get to encounter with God and yet proclaim the Lord. This 3 Women had great fear of the Lord, which therefore experience the greatest miracle in their life for what they had done.
Friday, December 11, 2009,1:55 PM
I finally made the decision
I woke up in the morning today, finally made a decision to erase all the past memories. It took me so long to pick up the courage and make the decision to delete all the past messages sent by someone. I actually left it in my phone for 7 months, but I felt it was all useless now, it serves no purpose to leave it in my phones anymore. It only tempts me to walk into a path where I should not be walking towards, it would only be the memories that keep haunting me if I kept it there. I am no longer going back going back to somewhere that I do not belong. It was really a huge decision for me and yes I ask God for the wisdom and the strength to do so. If I do not delete it from my phone, there is this temptation and hope that I keep looking back and yes it is not healthy for my relationship with God. I do not think God would be please looking at me doing that. It's enough, and time to wake up and serve the Lord my Almighty God.
Its UT(exams) before school holiday starts and I do not like it. I can't put my mind to study for my exams and rather read the bible where God guides me in my life. If not I would be in KL with the rest of the cell group members, shopping, swimming and so on... I lost the purpose in staying in my school as I am not going into the field where I am studying, but something else.
Yesterday, I realised that the skills I had can be used in church to lead others in Christ and cell group. Thank God for empowering me with all this skills, finally found the purpose. However, I still got the urge to leave this school and move on to the next phase of my life. I am praying about it as to where I would go and what I should do.
Today, while being in school, there was this group of people who came to my class and ended up giving me a candy crane. This candy crane was specially for me which kind of surprised me. The message on that crane did not review who the person is, and this kept me guessing. But however I am thankful for the person who gave me that crane, it really made my day. Maybe it's just God's will :) God's will of rewarding me. *smile. Love...
Now basically contemplating whether I should be going for the Sundown Marathon, since so many people are talking about it. I think I should pray about it and listen to what God say before making the decision :)
1:16 AM
My journey
I thanked God for bringing me back into the house of the Lord. I think it is really God's plan to put me where I am today. I always longed to be with the same cell group with my spiritual brothers which I was more comfortable with 4 years back. I realised God heard my cry and yes brought me back to a place where I am back with them at the same time serving the church serving God with them in the same cell group. Halleluyah.
7 months back, I believe it was really God's testing on my faith. He really gave me a choice to choose whether I want to walk with him or walk with men where I can see with my eyes and feel with my hands. And yes I decided to give it a try by walking and believing in men, I chose to walk with men and walk away from God because I thought they would bring me happiness bring me everlasting joy, but after 5 months men on this Earth failed me and hurt me, which cause me walking back to the house of the Lord after being approached by my dear spiritual brother, Dalston. I think it was all God's plan, his plan to bring me back, his plan to allow me to fall. It was a test of faith, and how faithful I am to him.
But also after this 7 months I realised he never failed to walk away from me, he was the men who stood by my side when I needed someone to comfort me. God never forsake me, and he showed me in the way that the family of God is ever willing and ever happy to welcome me back again. He spoke to me and told me that I was never lonely walking in this journey but there is him who is with me and also my spiritual family. In times of darkness, he brought light.
I must say that I lost my journey of how to walk and where to walk, but I am glad that God showed me the way today and tell me through my spiritual family that I have so many more things that can be done with my talent my strength in his house. I could put every bit to save the life of the people who have not been save. That there are so many things prepared or layed out for me to do to serve him my Almighty God.
This was the very verse that God put in my heart when I was reading Exodus today. " Don't be afraid. Stand firm and watch God do his work of Salvation for me today." -Exodus 14:13. I sense God telling me to put trust in him as he does his work, so do not for a minute doubt whether if what he said would happened, but just trust him wholeheartedly. For it is God's plan if the time is right for the things you cry out to come. He is sending a message to tell us to be patient and wait patiently and do not sway. :)
Sunday, December 6, 2009,12:45 AM
Who Am I? What is my identity?
Totally thankful and glad that I attended church service today. I finally found the answer to the questions that I kept asking myself. It was God who gave me the answer, I guess after crying out for so much after having so much hurt, he decided to give me the answer that I was seeking throughout my life.
I was struggling so much with this question of who am I? Who exactly am I? The identity question. I think I am not the only one struggling with this identity question. Today Pastor Khong preached about on this message " The Blood That Save Your Face", and this message was all about finding our identity. He told us Jesus lost his identity so that we could find our identity which is in him, this is when he died on the cross and was crucified.
There was this part in the bible in the chapter of Exodus, where Moses asked who is he.(Exodus 3 :11) God answered "I'll be with you". (Exodus 3:12) God said I am who I am. I am has sent me to you. (Exodus 3:14) The message that God wants to tell you is that you are who he is, that's your true identity.
Many of the times when your friends ask you who are you. Usually we would answer we are what our occupation is, we are our race, we tend to identify ourselves with what we do best as who we are, but the matter of fact that is not who we are. A lot of times we struggle to identify ourselves.
Today's message is about God telling us that it's not about who we are. We are who we are. He is who he is. When we know who he is, we would know who we are. We identify ourselves in him. We should not be discovering ourselves but most important we need to discover who God is. When you seek yourself, we often lose ourselves. Many of us find identity in our success and with what we are doing. When we seek ourselves we lost God and we sinned.
When we do not know our identity we do not know which direction or where to go because our identity determines our actions. When you are conscious about yourself, you fear, you fear people or the human beings of the world because you are trying to be them so to lift up to the standard that the people around the world set. We try to please people with things we do not like, we tend to lift up to the opinion with others, we lost ourselves. We do not see God. If you realised people love to call us by our weakness, but God never calls us by our weakness.The Devil usually robs by attacking our identity, that's when you are gone.
Therefore I am who the Lord, God is and not what the people of the world thinks. That would be who I am I am special. This message came so timely. My identity is me and there is nothing to find out about who I am. :)
